當我在面子書那麼寫到時，曾有個朋友回應說，平平凡凡的不是很好嗎？這短短的一句話，似乎不太容易了解。
它是收錄在雨生老師《一天到晚游泳的魚》專輯中的歌曲 ——《祈求》裡頭的一句歌詞。作詞人是陳樂融，作曲人則是吳大衛，而演唱者是雨生老師。我想，若要明白這句話，就得先聽聽這首歌……
注意聽最後一句歌詞哦。
該怎麼說呢？聽他唱出來的感覺，並不像是『不想度過平凡的一生』那麼簡單呢。我總覺得，歌裡說的像是一場夢。就像是一個夢中的愛情故事，根本不是現實。感覺就像是在說：好希望能與你度過平凡的此生，因為只要有你在身邊，我便再沒有怨言了。
如果這麼想，那麼歌詞也就更能了解了。最燦爛的秋天、最狂熱的夏天、最纏綿的秋天、最豐收的冬天，都只有你能給予我；天地之間塞滿了萬物，但只有與你在一起的時刻，才是真實的；只要你在身邊，哪怕愛情漸淡、年紀漸長，也帶不走我的幸福；你是溫暖的陽光，把我從無奈與悲哀中拯救出來……
我覺得，雨生老師錄這首歌時，是這麼想的…… 所以說，當我說『我不想平凡過一生』，我的意思是，我想與你平凡過一生……
熹月藍斯
賈栒子木
沒辦法不想當作家呢…… 因為太愛寫作了。能把所有的情緒、感受、體驗、幻想等，以一詞一句記載下來，實在是美妙至極的感受。感覺就像思緒在紛飛一樣，從腦子裡漂浮出來，變成文字在字句間起舞，只能說是…… 太神奇了。
雖然不是每一次都能寫出稱心的作品，但寫出來的感受卻比必須壓抑的感受好太多了。可憐我沒足夠的時間，好幾篇論文根本無從下手，半完成的小說也都擱置在一旁。太可惜了。就因為我是個學院生，尤其身在異鄉的學院生。
喜歡畫畫、寫作的大家，一定是同樣的感受吧？我想。我太愛了。真的太愛了。愛的好痛苦、好痛苦…… 真想化身一隻青鳥飛出這無理取鬧的籠子…… 等我把，遼闊無邊的蒼藍色天空，我的自由。我總會到達那裡的。
賈栒子木
Everyone who read my blog/s probably have noticed that I hate science just as much as I hate myself. Nah, just joking. Okay, here you go:
Seeing science being applied in overwhelmingly more and more shit makes me feel terrible. Science is a new religion, which is now being taught in most schools, by the teachers telling their students that “scientists know… scientists have found that… scientists have proven…” But these are simply misleading!
Because of such misleading teachings, now we have a society where the majority read into every single word of the scientists and take them directly, word by word, just like how those ridiculously religious people read into their so called scared texts without realizing that they might be interpreting the text wrongly.
What has happened to science? No. Perhaps I should ask: what the heck is going on with us human beings? Science has developed so much but we, those who developed it, have not grown at all. Still so ignorant. Still reading a book as if we are reading God’s mind. Seriously, that’s simply idiotic.
Lao-zi is wise that he started his book by telling his audience that no one should expect to understand what he has written in his book, since he was not perfect and was not able to put everything into perfect sentences, and that we are not perfect and hence are not able to read the actual meanings of those sentences…
Someone who lived over a millennium ago can actually understand this very simply fact, but we who breathe in today’s air, are so high-tech that we do not understand such a simply idea. Seriously. Science is but an approach to knowledge. Science is not God. Science is not the ultimate truth. Science is just a tool, and merely a tool, nothing else.
If only those medias and teachers are willing do something, we might be able to make some changes.
Jyyer
College is where you learn about all those devastating knowledge regarding human societies. Your college might not teach you such shit, but mine does. By college, I mean an educational institution in which you get learn soft science, and the actual soft science; not just the contents, but the interpretations.
When we were in elementary, middle and high schools, we were always taught about how clever our ancestors were, how powerful technologies are, how the economy of societies have developed etc., but the complete picture was never shown, leading us to believe that this world is wonderful and all we need to do is to study hard and become a rich bastard…
College, however, introduces social studies, such as world history, philosophy, sociology, psychology, anthropology, economics, geography and those akin to us, which inevitably force us to wake up from our long believed and beloved illusions. They introduce to us all the downsides of the pictures.. Example? This one is a classic:
To regulate a society and to protect it from harm we need concrete rules, and to have such rules is to have authorities, and to have authorities is to have unequal distribution of power, and power leads to corruption. As Lord Acton put it, “power tends to corrupt, and absolute power corrupts absolutely.“
College shows us all the harsh most realities; all the things our ancestors have done; all the dirty most, darkest, harsh most realities about the history of human societies, which most books omit by simply keeping the lower class people out of the pictures.
College is a place where people either learn the realities and turn mad, disappointed, crazy, miserable etc., or ignorant and stick with their old beliefs of a wonderful democratic and capitalist world where everyone can be rich as long as there work hard enough and therefore all their need to do is to work hard and be a rich bastard.
I am, as suggested by the amount of white colored hairs I am earning ever since I left high school, particularly since I came to the states, among those who recognized the realities and tried hard to live with it but can’t stop feeling disappointed and all my dreams sadly devastated…
That’s why when a Japanese comic artist describe “reality” as multifaceted depending on what one is willing to see, he or she is probably right. Believe it or not, we all see the same thing as different things simply because we all bear different sets of values, or as some sociologists put it, different cultural lenses.
Jyyer
